gloomy

love, i know these couple of days had been so hectic+chaos. I'm glad that u were there with me all along. we're going to be sort of lost contact this coming week. i know we won't be that far from each other but both of us are going to be so busy with our own stuff. it upsets me knowing that i wont be able to see u at least once in a week time. I'm nervous. i really need to build up my courage but it seems like every second the clock's ticking, my heart felt like it was throbbed.

baby, i want to apologize for what happened between us lately. i never meant to hurt u nor make u feel uncomfortable/worry. i want u to know that u got absolutely nothing to worry about me and my guy friends. there's only one man that i desire now and forever. u are the one that i only and truly love. i hope u trust me on this. i love u Heikal..

2 more days to go

im quite nervous for this saturday. sigh.. how i wish i could extend my holidays. even though it was so boring, at least i dont have to worry bout my grades also meeting and making new friends. anyway, i just came back from the salon. im no longer a blonde+red head but a brunette instead. sigh again...

tiring day

geeee! its been so HOT lately. went to the hospital today. there's a very cute guy sitting next to me but unfortunately, he look so sick and seems like he's going to die any time soon. kesiaaann.. i hate going to the hospital!

slutty ex

pity her
she just cant push herself forward
begging sympathy is her best quality

pity her
crying and mourning over things that ain't meant to be hers
try to pretend everything is fine while its a disaster

pity her
writing all the bad memories to suck people's attention
no one can differs the truth and swindle

pity her
her mind and soul thirst of his presence
she's blinded by her own emotions

pity her
i never meant to turbid things up
her shallow mind dragged her to the valley of doom
pity her, pity her.

havoc -7/6/08

oh my oh my! it was a disaster outside lagoon. everyone's pushing and yelling towards each other. riots happen almost every 10 mins! luckily i got through it in less than an hour without any injuries. lol. inside, there were a lot of junkies and kiddies. gosh! it gives me a major headache. anyway, still had fun tho with my girls and heikal. geeee.. i dont think i'll be going for SS again next year.

devil's day

2 great things happened today. 1st of all, i just got my new car. the other is that heikal passed his exam. it's such a relieve knowing it because he'd been complaining about how suck it was last semester. thank god that 2 out of plenty things that i always worried about had past. what can i say about the new car? hmm.. the "new car" smell gives me a major headache. plus, it was a freaking hot day and everywhere i go there's heavy traffic. luckily its an auto car. im so tired. i felt bad tho because i made him wait at the restaurant about an hour. sorry honey. love u! XoxoXOXo.. <333

i want to love u madly

im sorry for acting like a bitch earlier. its a very sour and gloomy day. im just not in the mood to talk to anyone including u. what ever u say wont make things right and i hope u'll be patient enough to just leave me alone for these few days. sorry again. i just want to be on my own.

down on bended knee

boy, i really miss u. it makes me feel like crying when ever im lying down on my bed while listening to all the songs that we had memories together. there's nothing more that i wanna ask for from u except for u being by my side all day and night. i know that's impossible and sounds so selfish but believe me, im not being myself when u're not around. its hard for me to laugh, smile nor communicate like i used to be. boy, i miss u. there's nothing else i could do to make myself to think less about u. so im asking your help to stay and care for me more than what u do to anyone else. sigh.. cant stop myself from missing u... =(