if i were a boy

beyonce's latest song really hit me. im not sure why coz everyone thinks that im so lucky. the truth is, everything is so much different now. we argue,we yell, we cant communicate as well as we used to. it makes me sad but i dont know what i can do to turn back time. it wont do anything if i talk it out coz i know it'll end up ugly and messed up. im depressed. i need a vacation. :'(

what's happening?!

im so stressed and messed up! what's going on?

unbelievable!

im not sure y many things turn out like what its not supposed to be lately. countless accidents and tragedy happened. currently no one knows y im like this. sigh... perhaps they didn't notice that im a bit different than usual. gosh! i really wanna get back to itm n study study n study more so that my mind is occupied. he keeps getting mad at me and my friend's are currently not available (they got their own reasons) for me to turn to. double sigh..

holiday has just begun!

unfortunately, i miss class and friends already. sigh.. i'll be staying outside next sem. there won't be any of my psycho friends to fool around with me anymore =( i'm gonna miss them bugging around tho. haha.

oh! my birthday is coming in less than a month! weeeeeee =) can't wait for it! where should i make a party this year yeah? hmmm... any suggestions?