if i were a boy

beyonce's latest song really hit me. im not sure why coz everyone thinks that im so lucky. the truth is, everything is so much different now. we argue,we yell, we cant communicate as well as we used to. it makes me sad but i dont know what i can do to turn back time. it wont do anything if i talk it out coz i know it'll end up ugly and messed up. im depressed. i need a vacation. :'(