unbelievable!

im not sure y many things turn out like what its not supposed to be lately. countless accidents and tragedy happened. currently no one knows y im like this. sigh... perhaps they didn't notice that im a bit different than usual. gosh! i really wanna get back to itm n study study n study more so that my mind is occupied. he keeps getting mad at me and my friend's are currently not available (they got their own reasons) for me to turn to. double sigh..