she's a star

her star doesn't shine as bright as before. her days are gloomy. her emotions are washed away. all she can do is sit and think what went wrong.. nothing seems right. does a smile able to light up her day? she wonders.. what can she do to turn her back to what she were? she think again. her sleep are disturbed. her laughters are silenced. her smile are faked. her touch are cold. she looks away. why is this happening? rain falls again that evening. its getting heavier. all she heard was another melancholic melody. she sit and stare at the window's pane. the spider is struggling to get in. she didn't bother. what's really in her mind? she wonders again.. she look away. she sees a living thing jumping from one leaf to another. it seems like nothing could go wrong and there's no consequences should be considered. how she wish she could be it. she stares at the pile of books. sighed.. she's tired of her life. she stood up and walk away. hoping things will get better.