i may look like this but i have feelings too

u can say anything that u want but i still hold on to my believes. no matter what i still want u. u may feel that im not a good company but i will still be here waiting for u. it hurts knowing what u thought n felt about me. fyi, i dont want to mourn over things. it is tiring but that's the only thing i could do to build myself. im sorry if i dragged u into my own hell but i want u to know that i never meant to do so. i am terribly upset and disturbed about our convo earlier. i am mentally tortured. i might not be the best person for u to be with and live the rest of your life with, but i know for sure i will try my best to be the "one" for u.