disturbia

im so addicted to disturbia nowadays. it seems like its describing my life for now. sigh.. i miss heikal. i miss being the old us. laugh all day and night. hang out like nobody's business. i miss those old days but of course there are lots of consequences that we have to go through to get back to it. i haven't been telling heikal how i feel lately. i guess because i don't want to burden my feelings with him. (as if he don't have enough things to do and think of) i miss hugging heikal and all the moments that we had spent together. im lonely and stressed up. i need a vacation. but how?? final's is coming and there are lots of stuff to revise and there's too little time. i so need him right now. if only i could just share this with him. everytime i confront him, the words is just not coming out. i want him.. to be in his arm would be the best thing that could happen now.